What’s Keeping You?

As an early teenager and a young Christian, following the Lord wasn’t easy. I found it so difficult that I eventually rebelled against my upbringing and sank deep into a world of sex, drugs, and rock-n-roll. It’s by God’s grace that I found healing and restoration.

There were several reasons for the hardships I experienced as I tried to live out my faith among my peers. I won’t list them all here.

But I will tell you that I believe my biggest frustration was due to an incomplete, even downright detestable, view of God.

Of course I was taught that Jesus was kind, loving, and able to save us from our sins, but it sure seemed like the major thrust of the preaching and the general attitude I picked up along the way was that God was capricious, ready to condemn, and demanded constant sacrifice to appease his insatiable thirst for more of our blood, sweat, and tears.

I could never pray enough, read enough Scripture, or do enough ministry to find favor with God. Over time I became resentful and bitter in my journey. So, I quit. I told God he could keep his religion. I wanted out.

Several years later the Lord reached down and revealed himself to me in the midst of my rebellion and sin. I had an encounter with Jesus and his love that forever changed my life. I’ll never forget it.

The Lord kindly whispered that I was wrong about him and that he would like us to start over. That was the beginning of something new.

Learning to Say “Abba, Father”

When I was in college the Lord began to reveal the origins of my earlier frustrations as a young person.

I must confess that growing up I didn’t feel very close to my dad. Also, several older male influences were insensitive, angry, and antagonistic. I longed to be affirmed at an early age, but suffered a deficit.

Thus began my mad pursuit of numbing the pain and filling the void.

I eventually discovered that a fundamentalist presentation of a bicep-flexing, bully-God combined with a dysfunctional relationship with my earthly father (and other male leaders) resulted in a deep inability to view God as a loving heavenly Father. Something I couldn’t see at the time.

I see it more clearly everyday now. I think at some level we’re always fighting against false images of God. Our hope is only found in a fresh revelation of the God revealed in Jesus of Nazareth.

As Jesus told his disciples, “Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father” (Jn 14:9).

What’s keeping you? Really. What’s keeping you from following the Lord in freedom? Have you seen the Father rightly in Jesus?

This is the greatest need of the church. The only way of revolution.

I believe the Lord wants us to call him “Abba, Father” and feel it from the depth of our soul. I’m learning that the more I come to know God fully revealed in Christ, this great term of endearment is born from the heart and rolls off the tongue naturally in prayer.

And since we have a loving Father, Jesus says we may ask of him whatever we like for the sake of the Kingdom.

Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.  John 14:12-14

Let’s ask the Lord for the “greater” things this year, expecting that he will do it. He wants to do it. Believe it.

Abba, Father. Free us from the old familiar. Remove the scales of dead faith and putrid theology from our eyes that so often obscures our vision of your glorious Son, and keeps us from believing in greater things.

Holy Spirit, move across the earth like a mighty rushing wind.

Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Amen.

D.D. Flowers, 2013.


About David D. Flowers

David received a B.A. in Religion from East Texas Baptist University and a M.T.S. in Biblical Studies from Houston Graduate School of Theology. David has over 20 years experience as a pastor and teacher in and outside the church. He currently pastors an Anabaptist congregation in Pennsylvania. View all posts by David D. Flowers

10 responses to “What’s Keeping You?

  • John Morris

    Amen. Thanks David, well said.

  • Jay Goldsborough

    I think “frustration” is an appropriate one word summary for a staggering percentage of seeking Christians at this juncture in our culture. My story is similar to David’s except that I became bitter and “walked away” AFTER I had graduated Bible college, been married and started out in ministry. Thank God that now, nearly 10 years later, I am starting over again on the bedrock of identity in a true representation of Christ. Thanks David, Greg B. and so many others who have spoken out in recent years about this so very needy subject.

    JFG, Iowa

  • apronheadlilly

    This gives me hope for my prodigal.

  • Cheryl Dupay

    David…thank you so much for this blog today! I was very frustrated this morning after being in a Bible study where folks were hanging on with clenched fists to the holiness of God and refusing to even to consider that He IS Love! And that He relates to us in such a manner!! I came home and prayed that my Father would encourage me as I started to read. Your blog was the first thing I read. Mission accomplished my Father!!!
    Basking in His Love,
    Cheryl (aka the car seat lady!!)

  • Surit

    Great post, David. Your story reminds me of my own! I was a Hindu and I was filled with similar images of God like you had been. It truly was (and still is) marvelous to have found the real image of God. May Christ’s name be glorified through stories like yours.

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